Growing up, I learned to ignore my intuition -- if there was a conflict between my inner guidance and my outer world, I usually opted to go with what the outer world advised.
It felt safer. It felt more concrete. It felt more acceptable. And I lived well...
But my soul was calling me...consistently...softly...ever patient...ever understanding...gently lighting a way back to Self.
So, I started to trust my inner guidance with little things... e.g. "Body, what do you need today?" Whatever came into my awareness, I acted on it. Oftentimes, I was curious to know why my body wanted e.g. tomatoes and began to look up the properties of whatever my body requested (after I had already eaten it) and had a lot of ah-ha moments. This built my trust and confidence...Whatever crystal I was drawn to, I'd look up it's healing properties...ah-ha!...I started working with my "Support Team" from across the veil..."Which direction for a primo parking spot?" "Thank you, parking angels!"...
I went to workshops where I got an intuitive "Yes" to go (versus logical decision-making). This led me to places all over the U.S.A., and learning things that years later I see how it all ties together. Note: Although sometimes one may never see the impact of one's intuitive decisions, I imagine it's just a much larger tapestry you are a part of in those cases, so what you can see doesn't necessarily make sense as it's just a small piece of the whole. Also, oftentimes, your messages won't make logical sense or follow linear steps.
I was gradually trusting my inner guidance for more 'weighty' decisions, every time being stretched to trust.
I still check-in with others I trust (friends, readers, etc.) around certain life decisions, it is fun bouncing ideas off one another, and I am thankful for their support and perspectives. The difference is now I take that additional information and go back to meditate on it and ask my inner guidance to show me which path is the brightest, all things considered. I utilize the outer world versus follow the outer world.
Sometimes I think, "Wow, I trust so much". Then an opportunity comes along and I find I have a lot more trusting to get comfortable with. :) I can see though if I do take that leap of faith, how magical my life could be more of the time, free from so many limitations I've accepted throughout my life experience. Creating from a whole new perspective.
My upcoming move is an example of this. I knew I needed to move from the place I was living by March 2019 (I had been given plenty of notice)...so I asked a fellow reader from a curious, fun space: "Where to?" I had just assumed it would be somewhere in the Bay Area, so I probably asked this late in the game from a linear perspective... The answer was... Alaska...! I looked at it for myself and got some more insight around Alaska energetically. Btw, it sure is awkward telling my friends/family/association, "Hey, I'm moving to Alaska. No, I don't know anyone, it's not for a job...it's just because that's where my inner guidance is telling me to go." (I don't actually share that reason with everyone though, not everyone can 'hear' it).
"Okay, I'm going to do it..." (after much back and forth and doubt, etc.). I wonder if there will be a time that no longer happens?... "Now, how am I going to support myself there?"
It's almost February. I'll be trekking to Alaska at the end of February. A place hasn't been identified. An income stream hasn't been identified. I'm trusting Source will support me and this move as it's part of my golden path (comes up clairvoyantly as gold light).
Meanwhile, I'm casting a wide net, applying to various places, applying for jobs, etc. Honestly, it's to appease to my mental body and there's a part of me that realizes it's just busy work. One could say I'm not trusting fully, but I feel better doing something, so I appease my ego. Deep down, I know if I just waited for Divine Inspiration, I'd probably only have to fill out one application for a lease, etc. (E.g. I'd just come across something and have the realization, "this is the place", and everything would work out smoothly). That is how it can work. I know this from personal experience (e.g. I was inspired to go to a workshop in Denmark, and got the flight/place lined up in a day, at amazing low prices. The Universe was supporting my going and paved the way for me very quickly as the workshop was just a few weeks away and in peak travel season...).
That is the conflict energy we need to work through when our inner guidance tells us something very different from what we 'know' to be true. E.g. Recently, I received the intuitive message to start a Learning Center for Energy Work (for children primarily, although the center itself would be available to the entire community).
Logically, it takes awhile for everything to line up for this type of initiative. But I'm getting the intuitive message, "Just run with it. Everything will line up. You don't need to find a 2nd job to support yourself." But I'm not receiving inspired action as of yet directly for it, just to focus on the move. I feel the clock ticking...:). And a call to trust more.
It's a process to let go of deeply ingrained beliefs, things like: We need to work hard to achieve results. Things just don't come to people, they have to work for it. No pain, no gain (and not worth it unless there's a struggle to achieve it). There's no such thing as a free lunch. This is how long it takes to do a certain thing. This is the way moving should look. Starting a business takes this much time and capital...etc.
Will I step up and trust? Or will I opt for the more traditional/safer route (secure a 2nd job and work on the Learning Center gradually on the side)...Really there is no wrong way, I will go with the way I can handle from my perspective now. But there is a way shining bright, beyond what my mind thinks is possible, if I choose to go for it.
I'll let you know... :)